Lastly

I have been thinking a lot about lasts. The date to move is just under two weeks out now and I am thinking about everything that I'm going to do in the time being. From seeing family for the last time, to certain drives I will be doing for the last time. To even just sitting at work at the ice cream shack, seeing the regular customers whose orders I have memorised and I can't help but notice that I likely will never see any of these people ever again.

It's so crazy.

   They will keep leading their lives just as I will keep living mine but the idea for but a millisecond in time we crossed paths is special and unique. Certain people really bring out the shine in people and there are lots of people here that I am going to miss, people who've I've gotten to know. Someone as simple as the chef in the kitchen, who've I've known for two years but he only speaks broken English. I did my best with my Spanish and we shared many smiles and waves trying to get a point across. But today, I thanked him for the past two summers and wished him all the best, he then returned it with a hug. I've barely shared a coherent conversation with this man but he is one of those people who bring out the shine in others. 

On top of that, I said goodbye to my old classmates tonight. It's... confusing. I was closer with others, with those who graduated before me, but with my own classmates it's more like respect? I wish them well, I hope they find everything that they desire but my life wouldn't change without them. Their just like forever acquaintances. Except tonight as I said goodbye, they gave me hugs, shook my hands and wished me all the best. I never would have expected that from them. I may not have been super close with them but I appreciate the small bits of time that we shared together. I guess I'm just learning to appreciate the lasts. One of my favourite quotes was written by Homer, he said, “Any moment might be our last. Everything is more beautiful because we're doomed. You will never be lovelier than you are now. We will never be here again.” And I'm really stopping to think about it now cause its true. We will never be here again. the sun will never be the same as it is right now. And every moment is both a first and last in the entire history of our existence. Everything is unique, from beginnings to lasts and I'm finally starting to see the beauty in the latter.

-Syd